You kiss my forehead & tell me that I'm beautiful. Too bad that I know better. You may see beauty on the outside but I don't. I see what's on the inside when no one else does. I see what no one can see or ever will. I know what pain means & certainly what pain feels like. I am not the perfect girl everyone thinks I am.
You walk me home. I stop short & look into the forest. I tell you that I need time alone & time to think. I bolt into the twilight night. I run & run & I continue to run even after I'm completely tired. I try to run out of my fears. I try to run out of my pain. I need you so much. But this is who I am. A coward.
I stop at the highest cliff, above the icy Alaskan waters. I look down. I know what you would say. "Don't jump." I think about you, your beautiful turquoise eyes. Those eyes that stare & melt my heart & soul. I think about you. Everything you make me feel. I begin to silently cry. I cry from being lost in love, not knowing which way to go.
I stop my tears. I turn back to the forest & run into the dense forest. I bolt through the night to find you. to tell you that I love you. to tell you what you mean to me. I search to find you, to tell you everything that I need to tell you. I want to show you that I could forever be yours to hold. Your Juliet. I want to be yours.
I come upon the edge if the forest & go up to your door. I start to knock but only to stop short hearing a conversation inside. It's you with someone else. I look into the window. You & the captain of the cheer squad are cuddled up on the couch laughing,. You kiss her on the lips & tell her that you love her, I look away. I run back into the woods not ever stopping.
Not ever stopping. I lost my chance. My one love. The one I forever will love. Can't you see that you belong with me? Can't you see that I'm only me when I'm with you? Con't you see that all along the way. I've been yours to hold? Can't you see that I'm your true Juliet? But, I lost you. I forever lost you because she is the head cheerleader & I'm just the girl next door. Forever marked as the girl next door.